NO LONGER WAITING OR HURTING....

I'm tired of being in the middle of your arguments and 'conversations'.... I'm the one stuck to be the delivery girl from one end of the line to the other one! and when you do talk to him, I'm stuck with all the after fireworks........ If you wanna come, then come.... if you don't, then don't worry about it! Cause I cbb about it already! not dealing with the deliveries, the fireworks... if you haven't noticed, I don't have a stone for a heart... I do have feelings as well not the two of you only.... If you want to quarrel, go do it quitely or wait till I'm totally toned deaf!!!

I don't care anymore, about you coming or not! We've been handling things pretty alright if you ask me!! and therfore, I conclude that you here or not makes no major difference!!

I DON’T HAVE THE TIME TO ACTUALLY LISTEN TO IT!! I NEED TO STUDY FOR VCE!!

IF YOU COME THEN IT’S JUST A BONUS POINT, IF YOU DON’T IT’S NOT GONNA HURT ME!! SO LET’S JUST LEAVE IT THAT WAY!!!

me, your daughter am truly tired, upset, angry and needs to get back on track.... thanks to you!

BLUE

Today I'm feeling blue... :( dunno why... actually I think I might know.... maybe it is because of the 2 hours sleep I got last night.... I seriously just couldn't sleep at all last night.... up till 7 this morning I finally fell asleep and then my mum woke me up at 9... and won't let me go back to sleep....... haih......

MISS MY DA-DA
MISS MY BFF
MISS MY FWENS
MISS THE RELATIVES
MISS THE FOOD
MISS GOING BACK TO SIBU FOR CNY
MISS GOING TO GALAXY AMPANG
MISS PONTENG-ING
MISS SITTING THE LRT & RAPID
MISS GOING TO MARTIN
MISS HANGING AT KFC DURING MARTIN CLASSES
MISS BEING IN 4 SC LAMBDA
MISS HAVING RECESS FOOD EARLY ON THE CLASS FLOOR
MISS SHARING THE FOOD WITH MY PEEPS
MISS TALKING TO JUNIORS DURING PRS MEETING
MISS THE PRS MEETINGS....
MISS ALL THE KURSUS AND CAMPS
MISS THE OUTINGS & SLEEPOVERS....
MISS THE SILLINESS AND CRAZYNESS

Was watching the sleepover vid that we made, laughed, cried, remembered, wished... I'm really glad we did the vids and the choco-pills, the yucky drink and choc after.... I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Through good times x 6 and bad times x 6!!! 'SF 3 babeh!!! [ml], -hs- & mt! BFF!!!! XD!!!

ARGH!!

When I study you think I'm a show off because I can speak better english and know more about stuff then you do.....
when I don't study, you think I'm lazy, a procrastinator... and a girl who is ambitionless........
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!?!?!?!?!
Can you pls tell me so that I can finally do something right in my life!!!
everything I do is never right and has never pleased you.....
you say the good results I got are just from pure luck and not hard work.....
You say I'm dumb and quoting you "... sometimes, I don't you have a brain..."
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sick and tired of trying to things your way!!!
Let me do things my way!!
You are driving me over the edge with all you "... i'm stressed enough from work... yada yada yada..."
SO?!?!?!? AS IF I"M NOT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
WTH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????!!!!?!?!?!?!?!!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?

Messy and Confused

Why some girls are just so so_______ put your own words in there, cause I sure don't know what to say that would explain the word I want to put in there! To those people that have dated two guys or girls at the same time, what goes through your mind?? Don't you know you are causing hurt to all parties? and for some 2 is not evne enough and you actually consider taking another one!! And you call it just a fling??!! Your fling hurts people do you know that?!!?! Just because 1 is in far away land, 1 is right next to you and another is away maybe some where in Texas, USA? OMG, can't you just stop and think what do you want to do? Maybe you should just be studying and not thinking about the other gender? Got 3 already and you are still looking at others?!?!!? Forget it man, when you ask for my opinion I gave it to you and you just totally ignore what I said and in the end when you had problems with oe of them knowing that you have got another one you come looking for me?!!?!?! And ask me what to do!?!?!? And you miss him and he is not talking to you and all those crap!!Damn it la!!!

Just because you are older doesn't give you he right to play with people's feeelings like that, do you know?!?!?! I may be younger than you but at least I can think more maturely that you can!!! You think about things in the box and never around or beyond it? You came here to study or find a freaking husband?!?!?!?! I'm like out of ideas and excuses to actually listen to your problems and sometimes help you solve... It's only because I treat you like a friend and thought that you looked and felt so miserable why not help you!!! But whenever he calls you, you just dump me and sometimes you don't even tell me before hand!! I had to wait for you just because you wanted to send him off! Eventhough you are not the only one I know here but I just thought because we came from the same place that maybe we would sorta be closer.... THANKS for putting me in a terrible position!! I don't even know what to do, part of me says forget it, she'll be able to solve it herself but the other part says help her after all she is still your friend....

I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!! somebody help me out!!! I don't even know whether you are actually telling the truth most of the time or not? You said something and acidentally I said to another and she denied it and said that never happened!! So are you tricking me to do what you want me to do?? If you are so troubled at home, then just bloody move out and stay alone why do you have trouble me?!?!? I know I suggested it but I never said I'll do it NOW!!! I'll do it when I feel like it, you are asking me a pretty big favour do you know that!!!! It is not something I can just blurt out like that....

Anyway, I got to go figure out this big problem and just needed some where to pour the frustration all out!! the whole day today was sucky and a pain!!! And thanks S for the cheering up and the offer!!! Thanks a lot!! And thanks others for the thought of helping me out!! Just wished there was someone that I could tell everything was here right now!! Might actually give them a call and see if they are free to talk or not!!! And if you guys actually are there... THANKS for always being there!!! [ml] & -hs-!!!! MISS YOU GUYS LOTZ and can't wait till I go back to KL and see you guys again!!! and not forgetting HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY GUYS!!!!!!!!! Wish I was there in school and then I can personally say that and celebrate with you guys with my mum's lunchbox!!! HAHAHA!!!! THANK GOD, Ima going up to the mountains and play snow tomorrow and spent a weekend there at least I can straighten things out then and maybe actually have fun and I mean what can make this girl happy more than fun and laughter!!!!!

SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW!!!!!!!!!!! Love those white stuff!!! HAHAHA!!!!!