WARNING : This post is just for me to blurt cause if I don't I'm going to go crazy and so yeah, don't read it if you don't wanna hear complaints....
You say that you don't restrict the career we want to pick for ourselves but you actually do!!! What is wrong with photography?? or culinary arts???? or hospitality??? or a degree in language???? or Asian studies???? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THOSE DEGREES?!?!?!??!?!?!?!? You don't let me go learn languages and if I learn them myself in school you don't like it!! You know what!! I don't care!!! FYI, I've learnt quite a number of Korean sentences and where do you think i learnt to speak the Chinese dialects I speak!!!!! What is wrong with learning language and actually pursuing a degree in that!!! It's not like I'm not doing marine biology, I'm just taking that as my second degree for the double degree plans... But NO if I want to take a double degree it has to be IT and Marine biology!! You don't even like my other major for marine biology! ARGH!!!! YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY!! I'M SO FRUSTRATED AND I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO DO A DOUBLE DEGREE ANYMORE!!!WHY?!?!?!??!?!?!!?!?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!?!?
I want to choose the degree I want to pursue!! have you thought of what if I don't get in?!?!?!? where does that leave me!?!??!?! I look at other pathways like maybe taking a diploma or advanced diploma and then transfer to marine biology but NOOOOOOOOOOO... all you say is why aim so low!!!? HELLO!!! If you haven't noticed, that who I am!! I AM NOT LIKE MY SISTERS WHO AM FREAKISHLY HIGH AND I AIN'T LIKE YOU, MS NUMBER 1 IN EVERYTHING!!! The things I'm good at or actually have the potential to go further you say NO!! What is wrong with taking pics for a living?!?!?! or translating for a living?!?!?!? ARGH!!! I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE!! I used to be so sure until you started being more excited than I am!! You start pouring me with all that information on just one uni alone!! what happens if I don't get in?!?!?!? The universities I came up with were all rejected by you!! what do you want me to do! I can't say no cause you are the one paying for the course fees! I actually thought of taking HEX or a student loan and work it off so I can pick my own course!! I was thinking of applying for scholarships too just so I get to choose what I want to do!
I'm not saying that I don't want to take marine biology, it's just I don't want to restrict myself to just that course alone! ARGH! I DON'T KNOW!! and you just keep stepping on my tail about it and you come and ask me what's wrong?!?!? and you start fussing about me being gloomy and moody the past few days!! Yo, look around! you're the one responsible for my frustrations!!! It's definitely not school cause it's hols already and I'm happy and high in school actually I'm like that the whole day until you come back! NO FAIL!! it's like the closer VCE is, the harder and longer and more often you step on my tail!! I have a feeling by the end of VCE my tail is totally flat!! and I still won't hear the last of you!!
WHY do you have to disturb me while I do my work??? do you not know the meaning of "I'm working! I have to finish my work before the due date!" JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME THINK! CAN'T YOU AT LEAST JUST GIVE ME SPACE TO BREATHE AND THINK?!??!?!